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This IS me (by schwitters)Default


Last Saturday marked ten years since my dad died. I found it unexpectedly difficult and was glad when it was over.

What I miss most is being able to tell him things. I lead a lucky life; I get to do some wonderful, fun stuff, and I'm very grateful. This year I've flown in a Dragon Rapide and been entrusted with a position of responsibility on a Bike Normandy motorcycle tour, and he would have been so pleased and proud and excited about it all.

On Monday night I watched Beyond the Sea, the X-Files episode in which a convicted murderer offers to pass Scully a message from her recently-deceased father if she'll get him off Death Row. It crossed my mind often back in late 2007, because I wanted a message, too.

Scully, of course, soon gets back to her awesome sceptical self and declines to bargain with murderers. Mulder asks her how she can bear not knowing what the message was -

SCULLY: But I do know.
SCULLY: He was my father.


I like this conversation.

(at the moment I wish my father would send me a message telling me who his father was ...
But imagine the satisfaction when you nail it, as I'm sure you will!
I feel your pain. :/ Now my own father's still alive (fortunately), but having lost other close relatives (and never having known either of my grandfathers in the first place), I can relate.

I'm sure he is proud of you, and I hope you'll get an opportunity some day to tell him all about the things you have been up to, and catch up with him again.

Drinking white wine in the sun and all that...
Dunno - I'm not sure that's something either of us believes/d in. But maybe! Thank you.
Yep; he's always with you, so he shares in your experiences even after he's gone. :-) *hugs*
Thanks! *hugs*

Over sixteen years since my dad died, and I still miss him in much the same way...
*hugs back*
I am sorry. October 16 was ten years since my father died - as you say, unexpectedly difficult.
Ah, sorry too. I hope you have a lot of lovely memories.
Always remember the good memories you have of him.
Thank you! I do, often!

December 13 will be two years since my dad passed. Even when you know it's coming, it can never adequately prepare you...

Yes - I had time to prepare, but it turned out I wasn't. *hugs*

Exactly...I still remember it like it was yesterday.